Yeah, I know, Ellis Island is touristy. Walking through Battery Park with thousands of people all in awful clothes, queuing up for ferries to take you to the Statue or the Island. What can I say? I wanted to see the station where twelve million immigrants first set foot on American soil - including my grandfather, Papou George, in 1910. He'd arrived aboard a ship from Crete when he was 18.
When our trip began, I got a text from my cousin Peter - it had been six months since I'd gotten a text from Peter. It's Lennon's birthday (he wrote) and I just realized you're in NYC. (And also) How cool for you that your first trip to NYC is on Lennon's birthday. (And also) Is it a beautiful fall day in the park?
And indeed it was a beautiful day there in the Park by the Dakota, October 9th, 2010.
John Lennon only had 40 years. And here I am, four years older than he, with four more years than he was given. My friend Christian put this up today WOMAN IS THE N****R OF THE WORLD and there he is, a ridiculously young Lennon reading words of support from Ron Dellums before singing for Dick Cavett.
Another friend, Randy, reminded me not long ago about that dark night in December - thirty years ago? How can it have been thirty years?
Randy was buying the Beatles' Rock 'n Roll Music Volume 2 at the Warehouse in Modesto on December 8th, 1980. The hippie clerk took Randy's money and then told him that Lennon had been murdered. Are you kidding? That's how Randy receives the news? Along with change from his purchase of a Beatle album?
I heard it like so many others - from Howard Cosell during Monday Night Football. The Patriots at Miami:
Remember (Cosell said) this is just a football game. No matter who wins or loses. An unspeakable tragedy confirmed to us by ABC News in New York City. John Lennon, outside of his apartment building on the West Side of New York City. The most famous, perhaps, of all of the Beatles. Shot twice in the back. Rushed to Roosevelt Hospital. Dead on arrival. Hard to go back to the game after that news flash.

The next morning, spray-painted on the moonrock walls of Grace Davis High School in Modesto, were the graffitied words I READ THE NEWS TODAY OH BOY.
Senseless - this word - Senseless - this word loses meaning - Senseless - this word loses meaning the more it's used. But I can't think of a word that describes the act with greater clarity. Just a writer. Just a singer. A husband. A dad. But so much more because he was also a Beatle. Killed . . . murdered . . . murdered because . . . .
Senseless. Seeking reason where there is none.
Senseless.
Say the word. Think about it. What does it mean?
One of the first questions Randy asked me, freshman year at Davis High, just a few months before December 8th, was who my favorite Beatle was. I have no doubt that if I had answered differently, we would not still be friends today - thirty years later.
Karen knows, so she didn't hesitate - actually led the way.
Past the horse drawn carriages, the statue of Daniel Webster - and past the people, my god all those New York people.
Up a little rise and ahead of us a sign. Strawberry Fields. And so I want to do the picture thing, and as Karen's snapping away we both hear - we both hear...
Of course we're hearing Beatle music, right? So we head up a little further, and there's a crowd gathered, listening to a band play the music, that music, playing Beatles and Lennon. I mean, of course, right? We're in New York on the weekend of John's birthday, his 70th. His 70th if only, if only...
with Instant Karma
with I'm a Loser
with I Want to Hold Your Hand
It's a chestnut, one of those memories I take out late at night, when it's cold and the wind's howling. That crowd, crushing towards those players, so many of us there in the park, so many - but none of us standing atop the mosaic, the memorial mosaic with the word IMAGINE in the middle. Instead, we circled it, left it free for flowers and candles.
with I Want to Hold Your Hand

In the restroom there's a black and white photo of Muhammad Ali - right after he'd changed his name from Cassius Clay - Ali at home inside a boxing ring with the Beatles lying at his feet.
Ali so young and strong. John and George hold their hands together in prayer, the prayer probably Please Lord let him not pummel us. I mean, of course I'd see this picture of these great men at the start of their careers - of course this is how I'd start that day, right?
Right.
My trip would end the next day with a visit to the Strand Bookstore where I'd find a copy of How I Won the War - the novel turned into the movie with Lennon in a supporting role (but starring on all the movie posters and on the cover of my little paperback). And then there's today, with people reflecting. A somber email from my friend Danny to me and Randy. Other people posting - and playing the music. Go play the music.
Anyway. Me? I feel like the little drummer boy. Just a poor boy, without a gift to bring.
Words, they're all I've got - on this, the 8th of December, 2010. Words. Just words to lay before you.
Words - and thanks. Thanks to John.
Thank you, John.
You could have said George...or even Ringo. Just not Paul. This shit matters to a 14 year old.
ReplyDelete"Just not Paul."
ReplyDeleteClassic Randy. Just. Not. Paul.